I’ve had a lot on my mind as of late and thought it was time to write a blog and share my feelings about the whole take a knee controversy and my thoughts on patriotism but I just couldn’t seem to find a good starting point (or middle part and ending for that matter)….then the Las Vegas massacre happened and I felt maybe I should turn my attention to my beliefs on gun control/mental health/second amendment/downfall of society and such and ran into the same problem. And then I made the mistake of going down the rabbit hole of Facebook and reading every post, meme and tweet from everyone on these subjects until my brain was ready to explode.
After “cleansing my palette” with a heavy dose of cat videos and super hero movie trailers I had a realization – I had nothing of merit to add to the discussion! On top of that I also found out my “friends list” had truly become what I wanted – a true melting pot of philosophies (what this country is supposedly meant to be). I have a great collection of people with vastly different opinions and views and when I took the time to read them all – especially the ones I disagreed with – I had a better understanding as to why things are so fucked up in the world. So many of us (myself included to a great deal) see the world from just our perspective and decide that is it – and if you disagree then you are WRONG so I’m going to just shout louder and repeat myself until I can’t hear your blasphemous opinions anymore.
So what to do? Well – I decided to take my own advice and re-read some of my past blogs and I was able to remind myself of my New Years’ resolution for 2017. I’ve also decided that if I return to this blog I’m going to try and take a page from my good friend J.T. and start just “writing” instead of preaching or pontificating over world events – there are plenty of other much more intelligent folks for that kind of shit.
So without further ado – I present to you, in true Hollywood fashion:
“The Year of No Fucks Given – the Reboot”
It seems that with a new year it is customary to have some sort of resolution to commit yourself to for the next 365 days, or as the case usually is, for the next week- week and a half until you realize losing that 25 pounds, quitting smoking or even being a nicer more tolerant person actually takes effort and really – “Who has time for that shit? I’ve got more important things going to do – like forwarding this great meme on Facebook or posting a witty comment on my friends’ Instagram shot of his plate of humus and cauliflower. Wow – that was one long-ass run-on sentence. Maybe my resolution should be to work on my grammar and sentence structure skills – my Mom would be ashamed. Anyway – I digress (as usual). My point is that resolutions are silly, pointless and ultimately non-productive – so of course I will now explain what my new years’ resolution is.
This year I resolve to NOT GIVE A FUCK! “Just what do you mean by that, Curt?” you may ask – and, as with most of my ramblings, the answer is probably pretty vague, incoherent and makes sense only to me (but if that’s good enough for the President, then it’s good enough for me, right?) So I will try and explain the best I can since what would be the point of writing a blog anyway if I wasn’t trying to impart some sort of wisdom to the reader – actually there really is very little “wisdom” here, it’s just my way of performing a “memory dump” on my brain to keep “the voices” at bay – but I digress (again).
In order to better explain why I’m undertaking this philosophy I need to also explain my upbringing and my past insecurities. As most of you know (especially if you read my blogs I probably sound like a broken record on the subject) my family and friends mean everything to me and because of that I never wanted to do or say anything to jeopardize those relationships. This has been a huge struggle for me most of my life because my opinions on many subjects differ a great deal from many of my closest “people” and I’ve been afraid my voicing of anything contrary to the “collective norm” would cause a rift or even cost me a friend or loved one. And now in this day of Facebook, Twitter and such we’ve all witnessed this shit happen over and over again (especially during this past election fiasco…er, I mean season). This, compounded by a deep lack of self-esteem and fear of conflict throughout much of my life, really has caused me to “swallow my feelings” for far too long.
It’s hard to pinpoint one particular reason for this shift in psyche for me – maybe it’s the fact I’m in my 50’s and the grumpy-old-man-in-socks-and-sandals-yelling-at-the-damned-kids-in-my-yard genes have finally kicked in, some spiritual “awakening” has taken place, or perhaps I’m just tired of having my stomach tied up in knots over stupid shit. Whatever the reason – I just don’t give a fuck anymore. I finally have come to the understanding and the belief that I’m a pretty decent person and I tend to surround myself with pretty decent people so logically we should be able to be open with each other and respectful of our differences because that is what decent people do – and if you can’t fit in with that then I guess I was wrong and you can just fuck off and go about your business without me because I don’t need that baggage around my neck.
Now this doesn’t mean I’m going to start going on a tirade of angry posts or tweets about the downfall of society because of Trump, “the media”, religion, saggy-pants, “violent video games”, gluten-free-locally-sourced-noGMO-veganism or any number of subjects “the kids are into these days”. The other side of the no fucks coin is that I’m also trying to simplify my life, clear the clutter and not add to the mess whenever I can. One of my favorite filters to use when thinking about saying or posting something is “will this make me happy or will this make me money?” – if the answer is no then why bother. Also at this point in my life I’m pretty set in my views and beliefs and anyone’s clever Facebook meme or passive-aggressive twitter comment isn’t going to change me or make me “see the error of my ways” – and conversely my comment to your post (which I might disagree with) isn’t going to change you so why waste the key strokes. If I like or agree with your post I will respond approvingly – if not, I will scroll past it and get the fuck on with my life.
Now, I’m not saying I won’t answer a direct question about a subject – I will – I’m just saying I’m done trying to tailor my response to match your beliefs. If it really matters to you what my political beliefs or religious convictions are (spoiler alert – I don’t believe in either) I’m sure you can figure them out by getting to know me. But also know that if those subjects really do matter to you as a determining factor over whether or not you can be my friend then don’t bother because you are not the type of person I need in my life. If you voted for Trump or Hillary or Herambe or if you worship Jesus or Allah or the flying-spaghetti monster I don’t care – if you are a decent person and respectful of my views I will return the favor or if we can’t see eye-to-eye on a subject then we can just switch the subject and concentrate on the real important things in life like who makes the best beer or why do people still think a steak should be prepared any other way than medium-rare.
So now that you’ve read this I hope we are still friends and if that is not the case then have a nice life and don’t let the door hit ya in the ass on the way out.